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I’ve been recording my occasional thoughts popping up into my head on my private telegram channel since college. I would sometimes post them to my blog on which you’re currently reading after I thought it was the right timing at that moment. One day in college, during my daydreaming and roaming, I suddenly came up with an idea and decided to give the name to it, “Mind Spark”, complying with its characteristics – out of nowhere, transient, bright and inspiring, just like the spark.
Through observation of my inner mental space, I wound up finding out that the frequency of production of ideas really relates to my mental state and my recent emotional flow. Thanks to that, I posted them on and off, since even myself cannot guarantee what the exact timing of “Mind Spark” popping up is. Apart from being calm through reflecting and recording my personal development, there’s not any motivation for me to do so, if not for fun. But something has changed, it’s no longer existing just to please me.
Over the past half year, my mindset has been hugely restructured as well as these mind sparks. Instead of for fun and relief, I started noticing that my mind sparks are more likely the records of self-enlightenment, which I should definitely write them down. I clearly know what leaded to happen and it’s also the reason I write the prelude which I usually don’t bother to do it.
We Chinese have been taught that we must have the three “RIGHT” perspectives, which are the perspective of the world, perspective of life, and perspective of the value, which if you conform with the main values then you have it, vice versa. I didn’t know this terminology, which I have been thinking it’s ridiculous for a long while, actually comes from the Party until recently. One thing has been bothering me a lot – what does “right” mean? Namely, who is the one judge it? Knowing it with my intuitive, I just don’t follow the rule.
English learning starting at elementary school is not an unusual thing. But for most Chinese, English learning is actually not for the learning itself, it’s more likely for learning for the exam. I used to be one of them. Like most Chinese, I don’t know the importance, especially in this land, of English. But for some reasons, I started taking it seriously. Then, another more fundamental question is emerging – if people couldn’t even know the basic English, then how could you demand them have the “right” perspective of the world, considering the serious censorship, considering the everlasting political propaganda and the rampant fake news? And all of these truth, you can not find them in that land.
I always have a sense of alienation – this kind of alienation is similar with you always know there’s something different between you and your people, like being half-awake, like you know something is wrong, something bad is happening, but you just couldn’t find the root.
Political propaganda is spreading like wildfire, occupying people’s life – it’s the dream of renaissance of that country. To me, it’s really like a dream – everybody is living in a big bubble, sleeping in, but once people wake up, knowing the truth, there’s just no way back to dream……
It all start at 2022/02/10
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People like the feelings, the ambience and the atmosphere.
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It’s another day to see the sun off.
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For people who did’t say or repost any piece of information that someone or anyone needed help in the past 3 pandemic years on their social media, I’ll really deliberate what these guys are gonna say later in their life. They were not only deceiving themselves but also lacking of sympathy, both of which I cannot accept at all.
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Wanna lie down on the rooftop in the summer air.
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Maybe you don’t know what exactly you want, but at least you should know what you definitely don’t want.
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The law, namely catch-all offenses, will shame people after one hundred years.
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One step forward, two steps back.
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Truth or even reality doesn’t matter to some guys. To them, it only matters how Big Brother depicts it, who uses nationalism and collectivism as tools to maintain authority and legitimacy and to manipulate the mass people. Thus, hatred, discrimination and prejudice are widely spreading.
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All the interesting conversations are now happening in private.
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Being special among the ordinary crowds is such a gift. Anybody feeling pain should always remember that.
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Wish nobody cried this time.
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Be tolerant with negative guys, be friends with positive fellow.
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The incredible discipline happening in my nephew’s middle school is gonna blow your minds. Some students were punished with no admission for dining at school, simply because they littered trash casually. Then, I can tell that a brilliant idea must pop into their pretty heads. The school demanded the parents whose kids were punished should deliver their lunch to school, otherwise they will not be permitted to eat, since there’s no other choice.
The whole thing was totally ridiculous. Teachers thought they were just disciplining, but I think they were just showing their muscles, they were too intoxicated to be aware of that they’ve been so damn drunk in power in the name of disciplining. Don’t they see it’s totally against the fundamental human rights? After starvation had dominated people’s sympathetic lives for so many years, after starvation has almost been wiped out from this land, they still kept doing it to discipline? Does that even make sense?
Not everything needs punishment, cause adults do things wrong, and don’t even mention they’re still kids.
And, is that the right way to how teachers divide the responsibilities of teaching students with parents? As if the teachers totally ditched the educational responsibilities to the parents. I mean, surely, parents should also take educational responsibilities, but definitely not in this kind of way. To teachers, showing authority to students can’t satisfy their senses of superiority. Now, they’re showing that towards parents.
Moreover, the most astonishing part for me is not only the punishment, there’s no one parent fighting for their kids at all in my nephew’s class! Even the method of punishment has transcended, yet parents either believe teachers are all correct or they’re afraid of being treated unfairly to their kids.
I just worry about what students would feel and perceive after years later.
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I just can’t get it, girls.
Boys incline to have a big fight with friends when they have conflicts, after that, they are still friends. But for most girls I’ve seen, they usually just break up with each other after a big fight, like forever. Moreover, they won’t leave any space for maneuver for rehabilitation, as though all things they had been through and all emotion they’ve been sensing don’t exist, and their past, connections and emotions are worth nothing.
Folks always say girls incline to be more sensitive, boys incline to be more rational. But are these sayings true?
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Mind sparking are overflowing now.
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Learning another language makes me perceive things from another angle.
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Hey girls, he doesn’t like you, he just cannot stay with loneliness, so he came to you.
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People living in this land should definitely know what’s going on in this land in the past months. Then, an article from Reuters could provide an insight.
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“The only one kind of disease around us now has terminated. Since that, we have to say we made such a extraordinary achievement. ” – Such political propaganda is the only one that Big Brother would tell.
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What would happen if things were different?
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We, boys, are not enemies against you, who are on the way of feminism. Boys are also victims of the patriarchy.
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Big Brother can never forbid every single word so that people can’t talk about things, situations, truths. People can always find substitutive words, a way to get it, to spread it.
That’s the one thing I’ve leaned from the past three years, but the Big Brother never gets tired of playing this cat and mouse games, such childish.
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If Mandarin shouldn’t be used for expressing truths, maybe English is better.
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You politicians are so lame, changing the languages just simply changes the truths. Things are things. Could we discuss things more objective less political?
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People’ll definitely talk about this one hundred years later.
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See, the time is dialing back.
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Learning another language couldn’t be more painful, basically you’re downgrading yourself and putting yourself into a really limited space, as if you lose your wings but you used to be able to fly.
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The whole bureaucratic system is like children playing house, don’t you guys ever get bored of?
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One thing I’ve learned from my college was that basically everything you need can be learnt from the Internet, all you have to know are the three main tools: English, Google, Youtube. And since you might be in this land, the fourth is the real Internet instead of the network you’ve been familiar with.
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We gotta be wiser or either be more muscular than youth, right? Since we’re getting older, having no way to make it stop, but we can’t just sit through and let it happen.
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Stories are amazing, can not only get you in, but also help you learn English.
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The key to learning another language, I guess, is to stop using your first language.
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No palace in the Queen’s Road, like no people in the People’s Daily.
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Do we ignore how powerful tools can be?
Schools demand that students calculate without calculators and students learn English or programming with paper and pens.
In the real world, we use calculators a lot and use less paper and pens.
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See what idioms people use to figure out what the major part of their culture is.
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Teachers direct your learning paces, but self-learning leads you on a way suitable for yourself.
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It seems to me that I’m really not a school learning guy.
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It’s too dangerous to talk about politics in this land.
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Now, that elephant is in the room.
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Feeling blue all day long.
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Be suspicious of anything you don’t know.
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关关难过关关过
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Don’t be stuck in that nightmare.
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Don’t see a big quarrel as a quarrel, perceive it as a great opportunity to deepen the relationship.
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1.4 billion people only have one mouth. What a joke.
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Angers are the side effects of inabilities.
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Infections, inevitable.
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Always, now or never
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Summer’s coming, fuck off body shame.
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I’m a robot who only needs electricity.
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Kids are great imitators. Observing them is basically observing their parents.
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For now, all is too sensitive.
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The thing I feel so sorry is that everyone who lives under the Big Brother has to censor themselves in case bad things happen to them.
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I think most of us, even who has dissent, can still accept or agree with that country needs time to progress, which was once happening until “you know who” was in charge. Everything is coming back rapidly.
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The Big Brother don’t need to have people convinced, they only need people to be terrified.
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Small dick energy or big dock energy?
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Some people are so unaware of emotional powers.
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Cognitive Warfare. Lies hide in the truths.
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If we had been taught critical thinking, things we don’t understand would have been seen through. Due to the political sensitivity, some certain issues cannot be mentioned even in this blog.
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If the Big Brother decides to influence the domestic masses’ minds, how come can the masses resist?
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Sometimes I just don’t get the point, how come the gigantic narratives come to your life? Don’t you ever focus on small things that really happen to your life, pro-Party?
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The Big Brother really did a ton of terrible things, but they whitewashed them.
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People are so hesitant to know the truth when they get the chance due to fear and pain of knowing truths.
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Lots of meetings happening in colleges are literally circle jerks. Do not even go in to them.
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Dodge that bullet or bite the bullet
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Thanks to English, I refill my curiosity.
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The more I know, the more overwhelm me.
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I believe people all know deep inside “surrendering yourself” is the only way you can move on in this land, but since this is so cruel, sometimes we just ignore it, like if we don’t feel it then the pain doesn’t exist.
But “surrendering yourself” doesn’t only happen to who is in a high position or wherein bureaucracy, it happens everywhere, like business, like even family. And I think we can blame on culture.
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Contain your anger, don’t let it be overpowering.
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Play the democracy card.
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I really dislike the main culture, all people seem to be built from a same mold. Where’s the personality, where’s the diversity?
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When the Big Brother can confront frankly their big mistakes they’ve made in the past, people can be proud of saying that they’re now living in a wonderful democratic country. For now, people are just living in a big lie.
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Puppy, stop looking at me with your drowning eyes, you know I can’t resist that.
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What would nightmares be like, when the Party is coming after people?
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We are all inclined to change others, whether unconsciously or intentionally, lest we get out of our comfort zones. But deep in our hearts, we all know that it can’t work out, since shifting theirs is way tougher than ourselves.
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They have a big pocket which can put anything into it.
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Having thoughts outdistancing the contemporary is a mental disaster, especially in this land.
You know something is morally wrong and logically unacceptable, but what else you can do besides publish your opinions and get arrested?
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Language contamination & Mental contamination
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Dawn FM , smooth like butter.
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Looking back is such a bitch.
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Dude, that’s puppy love.
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A man who manipulates females had been manipulated by patriarchy.
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You don’t have to be different, you can be distinct from others innately.
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Being muscular, being tough, is that your personality or your persona?
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Never shoot men’s arguments to be full of holes, they will resent the trophies you won from them.
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I’m trying to inundate myself with the abundance of English material to improve my skills.
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Bad temper shows weakness.
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Don’t ask, don’t tell. Hah…
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Necessary evil, gov….
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Free yourself from that mental prison cell.
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Reading is one way of defending the loathing coming from the primary family.
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Go-go energy
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You don’t have to conform with the main culture.
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If you don’t care about politics, then it will eventually come after you.
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Thinking wisely can also be a disaster.
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Being allergic to certain alphabets can happen in this land.
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Harboring ulterior motives, huh…?😂🤔🤫
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Don’t think of the consequences. Thinking makes you weaker, taking action makes you stronger.
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Better to speak out and die than keep silent and live.
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Hiding what they couldn’t tell, lying what they couldn’t hide, persecuting what they couldn’t lie, they’re not whom they told you, they’re gangs.
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The future is going nowhere.
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I’ve said I took a photo requiring 50 years to prove them were totally ridiculous. Now with the ruling being over, it’s probably not gonna take that long.
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One of the reasons that people should read original English books is that they can access to the original perspective from the author, without any censorship or distortion, since it’s a lot common under the Big Brother.
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Don’t uphold the laws, uphold righteousness.
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Using the connections to the system to make money is the only surviving way in this land.
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Running dogs
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So the book, Atomic Habits, really has the proper reasons to go viral. For me, it’s more like a set of life hacking methods, breaking down the way of human thinking, whether consciously or subconsciously, giving the instructions you can follow, also the brand new perspectives.
I’ve read some other similar books, but they are so hollow. This one is different, so specific.
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Westerners are good at being self-confident.
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There’re two effective strategies to fight against the unreasonable conformity: righteousness and the logic chains. And if there needs bonus one, it’s oughta be love.
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Can a few people get out of the conclusion that neurologists discovered or they fit in the norms but in a different way to interpret it?
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Patience, resistance, perseverance, willpower, energy, and even emotion, these are all consumables, which means they can be run out, while also could be replenished.
The key is time. There’s an intangibly variable limitation or threshold within a certain period, say, one day for better measurement. Once you reach its limitation, you just cannot get easily recovered, if not impossibly, whatever the meditation methods you use or the therapy you take within the time.
But there’re so many distracting things you can come across in everyday life in the way of learning or working, like the buzz or ringing from your phone, like the tantalizing smell of the junk food that wafts down from food shop in the way to hit the gym. Things like these eat off your finite energy, willpower, perseverance and all that. Every time you bump into these, you’re losing your consumables at some levels. Namely, the resistance against different temptations or the energy to take different activities is not isolated but correlated. The more resisting happens, the more energy you will cost, the more likely you cannot resist the next temptation.
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Don’t throw in energy as much as possible at the very beginning. You probably couldn’t stick to it.
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Chill out max, walking on the lane overshadowed, music and cicadas lingering around.
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Undergraduates can be okay with not learning anything but the fitness and English. There’re so many fake press all around the world. Knowing another language can help people to reach the truth.
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Enlightened from a Chinese medicine book I run into, I think it’s better perceive the Chinese medicine as a branch of the philosophy instead of a subject of science.
It’s extremely controversial when coming to this topic, which some people believe it’s a big lie involving substantial and dirty profits since there has many presses about the side effects of some Chinese medicines, whereas some people deeply believe of. Even Wikipedia warns latent risks of the Chinese medicines. From my perspective, the traditional Chinese medicine is so unreliable, since it can’t explain itself within its theories, even sometimes they’re contradictory.
The book came across is mainly based on the subject of the Chinese medicine, and the translated English book name is “Perceive the Chinese medicine in modernized way”. But in fact, it doesn’t refer to modernization or science. Ironically, despite of its name, it made several obvious mistakes. Anyway, basically, it’s a book persuading people to believe the Chinese medicine in a cunning way, with the cover’s saying – modernization.
But whatever the contents are, it is the one line that draws me attention and gives me a new insight to this subject.
We all know there’s a placebo effects in the modern medical treatments. The Chinese medicine is to patients who believe what placebo effects to patients who think they get the right treatment. So, comparing to modern medicines that have a lot of research you can pore over, it’s not the Chinese medicine worked efficiently but their beliefs.
See, surely, the Chinese medicine doesn’t align the theories of science at all, while it’s more close to to philosophies.
If you don’t go along with what I’ve said, just picture it. Do the some philosophical theories only work to some certain people who believe it while others don’t as well as the Chinese medicine? The answer is clear enough. You can’t deny the Chinese medicine as well as philosophies.
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People have been longing for power and under ruling way too long. How couldn’t they not be rapture? They’ve been in this fucking system way too long, either surrender or being surrendered.
Let me share with you a story from mine.
Something ridiculous I heard from a person I’m acquainted with in my college. At that point student has been treated unfairly for something I couldn’t remember the details. She said if she had the power, she would definitely have had other people taste this feeling.
“How ironic she can be!” That was the only line in then my mind.
People who had been treated unfairly don’t wanna change the damn situation itself, instead, they want to have others taste the torment they once had. People who they hate are the ones they eventually will become. And you tell me it’s called fate, it’s called human beings… We could all do better.
Before this event happened to me, I wouldn’t believe that’s the way how people react, but it truly reflects how badly people, at least some people, especially people in low ranks, would behave.
Maybe this kind of story could help explain why so many ridicule had happened in the past three years and MAYBE will happen in future.
I hate body shames, discriminations, moral kidnapping and the rest, which I shouldn’t since “hate” is hatred itself, which I hate it too, hahaha, just kidding, you know what I mean. So back to the point, body shame, you’ve definitely heard of such words if you do surfing whatever your nationality is, and to be honest, it’s getting kinda one political correctness, but not all political correctnesses are harmful, at least not this one. Being who you plays a big role in the person’s mental health, which basically liberates you from anxieties, shames, insufficient-confidence, and we should be grateful for, cause our pioneers really poured their blood, sweat and tears.
Before we dive in this sort of shames, we should know that body shames basically are everywhere, they can pop up out of nowhere in everyday life, but to cover them all in this article is impossible. Maybe just let me focus on this hairiness shame this time, because summer, which is my favorite, is coming, and I wish everyone can expose their skin confidently, of course need to be legal instead of being in exhibitionism, and enjoy this beautiful season.
This sort of shames, what I’m gonna talk about here – hairiness shame, is insidious. In my perspective, it hides at the corner of our Asian culture, especially in main land China, in where we don’t really talk about sex or any topic relating sex, like STD – Sexually Transmitted Diseases, or sex education. And I know, I know there’s another shame on opposite side, lack of hairiness, but in my observation, that’s not common in my culture ,or say, not noticeable, cause lack thereof is coincidentally conforming to the culture, no sex on the surface, like an elephant in a room, ironically. Based on that cultural convention, no one will judge or even say anything about other’s body of lack of hairiness. But is that saying the lack thereof leads to no shaming situation? At least in my perspective, it isn’t, commonly it leads to the opposite side of hairiness shame, lack of thereof, but subconsciously and unobviously. To testify my suspicion, I’ll give you some real life instance later on in this article.
First, why I said body shame is pertinent to the sex topic? To root up this idea all is probably impossible, like a river derives from everywhere and you can’t find them all, they’re all intricately connected somehow. But there does have something you can peek through how things happened, and how come things happened. As you can see, body hair can show muscularities in some ways, and some people even consider hairy people have stronger sexual abilities or desires than others, which no evidence can prove that is scientifically true. Based on that insane fallacy, one connection between body hair and sex has been established before we perceive it consciously.
And to further, because people who have less body hair conform the main culture, they think they naturally have the right to judge people’s behaviors whose have more body hair, sometimes deliberately but sometimes unintentionally. For instance, “You’d better get a hair removal.” – I didn’t ask your advice, you’d better save your suggestions; “You’re wearing a hairy pants.” – because you’re wearing a short, getting skins more exposed and which you shouldn’t, underlaying the words; “Oh, you have lot of hair on your leg” with neutral moods – I mean, Yeah? And? What’s the point? Like I said, some conscious, some unconscious, being in such environments is not comfortable, for some individuals toxic. Like, if you’re an introvert, if you want to shut them up but indirectly and politely instead of saying “shut up, it’s not your business”, seemingly the only way you could do is put your pants and coats on and hide your skin away. And that’s ridiculous.
I don’t know if you’ve watched the movie named American Beauty or not. There’s one piece of plots that occurred me, one character, father, homophobia, named Frank in the film who eventually ironically kissed another man after a hug, named Lester, shot him to death after Lester told Frank that he misunderstood. By the way, that’s a great movie you should definitely watch if you still not. So are people who shame others on their hairiness similar to Frank? That’s a good question to me. Who shames on people’s hairiness shames on themselves’ lack thereof, what if that is true, what an irony it can be, don’t you think so?
And as I said before, no sex topics one the surface that can easily lead to the opposite side, everything can be sexual meaning, like (A) Oh, having lot of body hairs? A sex monster machine, (B) Exposing more skins? Wanting to get fucked or fuck. (C) Having more friends of the opposite sex? A slut or rack…
I mean, really? How superficial they can be?
Okay, let me bring up some real life stories of mine to address that more clear.
First story happened in my middle school, and my “班主任”, which I know there’s no such job in western world, so I’ll just name it in English, “Head-Class”, which means a teacher who is in charges of a class, usually teaching of one of main major subjects, which in China are Chinese, Maths, English, Science, Sociology in middle school, managing students from personal behaviors to academic performances even if he or she is not the teacher of the subject(s), basically doing every school parenting things, which is literally correct since lot of parents think the only thing they need to do is to put kids into school and teachers should take care of everything educational, even their kids are not even at school.
So since he/she was way too overpowered, and considering a lot of students literally live in middle school – students cannot be allowed to back home over a half dozen days, how come? According to what I just mentioned, parents put their kids into, even in middle school, like me, even began with since elementary school. You can easily picture how bad it can be, and how easily he/she could do shitty things to you, only if he/she wanted to.
And unfortunately, my “head-class” was the exact one doing these shitty shaming things to me. So here’s the thing, my “head-class” liked nicknaming students, and most of these names were very offensive. Like if your Chinese name is “Xiaoming Li” and you have obvious leg hairs, he would name you as “腿毛明”, in English that means “leg hair Ming”, the end of part of this FUNNY nickname derives from part of your name. And he would call your nickname in public with his crooked smile, which he might think he’s funny, but I don’t get the point. To prevent that shitty things occurred to me, I’d never show my legs in public. To be honest, I wasn’t afraid of, but I just didn’t want to be the center of attentions, and luckily I didn’t.
At that moment, even I’d not formed my value view completely, I’d already known that was offensive. And even though the shitty thing didn’t happen to me directly, but it did prevent me from wearing shorts till I was in college, I finally had enough courage and confidence to put my shorts on after the battle of self-minds and self-healing. Yeah, didn’t do any therapy. Thinking back on, the reasons I didn’t stand out to point out the ridiculous and offensive are probably attributable to the environment and my age, the environment way too pressured, me way too young. As for now, who would give a fuck to, and probably give a lesson to.
I healed my trauma, but some don’t still now, probably forever. Some of them still obsess with the hairless, joking about hairiness unconsciously, such as suggesting you do a hair removal out of nowhere or using the offensive words “毛裤”, which in English means “hairiness pants”. Okay, till now I still don’t get the point, is that hilarious? How come that can show your humor in that way? It’s mostly like I standing in front of someone, and then he/she tells me that I have one mouth, two eyes, two ears. And what’s the point or what do they expect me to reply? Maybe they would like this one – Okay, you know what? I have no idea about that! You’re a genius. And you should probably tell me MORE about it!
So, here’s anther solution, if you want to fight it back with your manners. Next time you come across such situations, you can use the Chinese word “青龙”, for male, ”白虎”, for female, both which are using for describing people body-hairless or barely having body hair, to fight it back if you don’t wanna give them a serious lesson, showing your wide-knowledges by lots of Chinese don’t even know that. And these words are not that offensive depending on the way the tone you speaking. Yeah, show them real humor and hit them back.
I thought joking their bodies is the privilege of the adolescents, turns out, I was wrong. Some of them still think having more body hair is funny. But that’s okay, even they’re still not grown-ups, the good thing is you’re a grow-up now, who knowing what’s correct and what isn’t. Healing from that trauma makes me care less about shits.
I love summer, let me share some my treasure with you. To me, they’re a love letter to summer.
The Movie: Blue Gate Crossing; 蓝色大门
The Song: A Little Step, featuring Cheer Chen, album Groupies; 陈绮贞 -《小步舞曲》 – 《吉他手》
At the end of the article, wish you have a nice experience in summer, and get more skins exposed!
Saying “Hello, World!” is kinda conventional in the programming or computer field, it’s probably the first testifying sentence after building something up. But if you went through my website, particularly in the Archive page, you would realize there’s no any “hello world” statement stuff. Yeah, in fact I’d had another website and domain before, due to forgetting the payment of VPS fee, it’d been shut down forcedly without any datas remained. But that’s having been long time ago for me, and I don’t even remember what did I write.
Back to the topic, why didn’t I write such article since I kept running this web for several years till now? Okay, for the record, I’m not a political person, I’m not into any political propaganda, they seems like some kids games to me, boring – some of kids games are quite fun actually, but definitely not these ones, immature, self-deceptive and fooling the masses, and you know what specific area I’m talking about, since you can deduce based on the language I posting before.
Writing in English literally liberates me from endless censorship, which I wish I would not even give a fuck, which I couldn’t. Humorously speaking, Monica has seven zones, but the party, they seemingly have uncountable zones. You can easily hit the right point without even noticing, sometimes it even leads to funny but pathetic situations. As I said before, I can’t address my thoughts too clear because I need to protect myself, so if you’re interested in, plz don’t come to me with that kind of questions, Wikipedia is a better option. So, to recap, to embrace the real Internet and freedom is the one of my motivations to write in English.
Okay, that’s the perspective in the future, how about the perspective in the past?
Have you ever heard of the theory that we generations, Gen Z, are digital natives? That which means we’re given births in a world with Internet already, and didn’t experience, say, primitive life, and we generations probably take it as granted, which is part of the reasons that we’re called digital natives, I guess.
Writing this article or, even say, establishing this website is kind of my way commemorating the old days, which is pretty prevalent back to the very days. When I was in the kindergarten, I started surfing, which in China, that’s not very common owing to the economical conditions.
One thing I remember that I was so into the electric piano at that time, but my sister’s computer took my piano place. Yeah, no longer music stuff. Sometimes, I just wonder that what if it hadn’t token place, things would have been. Seemingly it’s a sad story, a young boy who lost his little dream, but it isn’t fairly enough. After the computer appeared to my life, I was quickly fascinated with it, and since I started playing computer early on, basically I was helping my classmates repair their computers every time the teacher was standing at the classroom podium, giving a lecture.
Due to the my early on abilities of surfing, I explored massive digital entertainment from the Internet, like forums, small websites, personal blogs, etcetera. And I wanna be one of these.
So, what kind of topics will this blog cover? Here’re main categories, humanities and culture, arts, techniques and daydreams. I run a podcast with one of my friends, I do photograph, I used to work in medias industry and I shared some knowledges, and other life stuffs. Wish you enjoy my website.
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看来世界上只剩下新冠肺炎这一种疾病了
(2022.08.23)
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女人总在问why 男人总在问why not
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在梦里听 ginger root的《B4》
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对陌生人热心一点
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跟我玩的好的男生大多具有探险家特质
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已经在梦里和阿岳做过朋友 听过老同学莫文蔚的私藏专辑 脑放过Ginger Root的B4 下一个精彩浪漫的梦什么时候来
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我想多年媳妇熬成婆或许是真的，古代社会里控制下一代大概是家庭妇女最好的权利捷径。
世界运行的规律可能也并非如同我年轻时理解的那般浅显，他们并非单纯惯性使然。
我遇过这么一帮人，遭遇过不公对待后的第一反应是下次掌权者是自己的时候一定要让别人尝到苦头。你们是有多变态，一点权力的甜头都没尝到就已经power drunk了。这是病得治，知道吗？
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Stay away from power drunk.
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生命诚可贵自由价更高
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昨晚做了一个团队冒险的梦，梦里有九个太阳和蓝天，深入东边的敌方大本营是唯一破局的方法，往西边走是短暂的鸟语花香。对方是实力深不可测的宇宙来者。
我们一行人开着车从敌方大本营里冲出来，不知该往哪走，我看了看天上的九个太阳，我梦里总觉得这梦我做过，指挥团队，果然逃出生天。
可西边的短暂宁静并不和平，队伍里有人想要放弃，最终大家选择共同对抗敌人，但我深知结局是失败。
毁灭之前，我们选择再赌一次。我们兵分两路，一路人马吸引注意力，一路人马装作对方学者潜入敌方大本营。
我们潜入大本营的队伍遇到敌方大长者，我们提心吊胆的伪装。另外一行人马，受到敌方暗算，遭受病毒感染，情况极度危险……
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Take it slow, take a nap.
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虚无主义小说——《新冠骗局｜新冠就是一场世界性质的大阴谋》
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台风过后 亚热带上的街道不要太舒服
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官谣不纠 民谣不止
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想要在任何方面超越这个时代都是十分困难的
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自由与尊重常打架
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城市生存法则/丛林生存法则
City Rules/Jungle Rules
大多相同
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Ready to fly?
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城市猎场里需要体能
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背单词 让通勤不再无趣
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人类渺小又自私，但是善良可以改变这一切。对陌生人释放善意的过程中产生回馈，你可以意识到自身的个体力量也可以改变周遭环境，地球上没有其他物种会对其他物种感到同情。所以很奇怪，人类又可以很伟大而无私。
或许我们获得的最后都是自我感动，但又或许这样的自我认同就已经很好了。
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Be kind,so you can change the world.
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那人成功登基以后，我的心里大概就只有：Ducking this shit, I’m going to space.
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好像全世界都在提醒人二十大的到来，支付宝、b站、微博，but you people should know that I really don’t give a shit.
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人生新感受，大多世间的直人们与选择形婚的同性恋们没什么本质上的区别，都是在找合适的结婚对象，无非是谈论财富、地位、学历、外貌的时候，直接与更直接的问题，大家真的没必要相互伤害。
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Silver Dream
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疫情现在进退两难 可能以后不管疫情叫疫情 改口叫流感 这样我们又战胜了疫情 又给了领导台阶下
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梦到坐飞机偷渡到国外拿手表，回来就是健康码行程码、集中隔离三件套，多少有点pdst了。
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There’s one human that you know who, and you couldn’t even mention his name publicly to avoid unnecessary troubles. This scenario should only exist in the movie named ‘Harry Potter’, but somehow, that could be true at this magical land.
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There’s no freedom here, let’s talk at somewhere normal.
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别做太理性的人，那样太冷漠。别做太感性的人，那样太冲动。
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It doesn’t matter if it’s successful, the important is that we were waiting for this first shot for so long. One day, we’ll finally get our real success even today not gonna work out.
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Take a nap while world sucks.
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utopia&dystopia
Maybe we’ve all lived in a utopia&dystopia world in some perspective, since Covid-19 pandemic and health code came out.
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I’m going through the deeply guilty, confusion at the dead of night.
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女人勾心斗角，男人切磋政治。原来大家到了一定年龄之后就趋同了。
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放开前病毒政治化，放开后病毒娱乐化，你们这帮人真的很无趣。
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地方政府对中央政策的不信任 不拆的核酸厅
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乳头对嘴喂养婆婆，如此荒谬的事情居然在今天还能登上孝道的大舞台。
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Google也挺搞笑的，疫情放开之前一直推送那些“极其严格的封控手段对人民生活和经济造成的巨大负面影响”的新闻(which I still agree with that)。好不容易放开了，又只关心死了多少人和死亡数据虚假(which I believe that again)。
所以啊Google，如果你的AI引擎操控人心就这么点能耐，离机器人统治世界看来还遥遥无期呢，可走点心吧。
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政府是不是太低估人民对孝道的真实态度了，我看发自内心得关心上一代的身体的人真的没那么多，大多人都是做做样子罢了。
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People’s so abused and addicted to power.
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Some people think I’m cynical, but I just don’t care any about political shit.
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I had plenty of silver dreams.
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Mind overflow
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I had a dream about lust and force. I was always on the halfway doing it. People are so cruel in my conception, they bullied me, but I tortured them back.
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Perfect in its imperfections.
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I grant you the privilege to call me Lucas Tao.
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其实小朋友并不会因为少写一份作业学习成绩大降，就像大人并不会因为他们小时候多上一门补习班就能得到更好的升学机会。
所以，说到底拼命让小朋友写作业、上补习班的家长，到底是对自己的过分自信还是过分不自信，或者根本没有考虑过这个问题呢？
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People like the feelings, ambience, atmosphere.
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最近小朋友上学带手机被我抓到了，一开始死不承认，直到我问“要不要我拿出证据”，他才承认。
但是说起被我发现的原因其实有点搞笑：
1.我之前在家设置了自动化，用home assistant扫描局域网，发现他用的手机连入Wi-Fi之后就会给我推送通知（一般是提醒我他在我家吃饭用的）。
2.已知他平时八点四十五到家。
3.他放学后要到我家跑步减肥。
4.从他家到我家大约需要一百步的距离，但来回算拿手机也至少要四五分钟时间。
5.我手机推送通知的时间是八点四十。
所以，只可能是他一开始就带到学校，放学经过我家连上Wi-Fi触发我的自动化通知了。回来拿手机看样子是没有作案时间的。
不过，我对他带手机的态度是默许的，自然他其实也没那么怕被我发现就是了。
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It’s an another day seeing the sun off.
Big things happened recently, and even now it’s still going on. I believe that just like me, lot of people struggled of their bad mood, especially we can almost change nothing at the end, it’s extremely frustrating. Feeling raging, panic, anxious or pain, but that’s ok. You don’t have to consistently blame yourself that you stuck in a bad mood. Feelings are what make you a human.
And in these days, I have paid attention to the development of these things, I also passed wakeful nights. I clearly know I can not be like this, I ruined my life day by day, just like I posted on my social media, ‘’I know it’s emotional, but I am still crying’’. Not only me, but also my friends cause the big things are going on.
Then one idea popped into my head, since I can deal with my emotion pretty good(in my personal view, and of course it’s need time), maybe I can write something to save ones from their bad moods, and at meantime practicing my English for preparing my future. And it can be a new categories in my blog, writing article in totally English.
It’s not only good for your physical health, but also your mental health. In other words, you can’t separate these two things.
In my situations, I feel really chilled out that I run and playing music simultaneously, I like the feeling that the rhythm lingers in my ears.
I use Apple Music, I like its design, such gorgeous and it has a clean interface. I put my phone on the treadmill so that I can focus the album cover, lyrics, rhythm and breath at one time without any distinctions. And that’s why I prefer run in treadmill rather than outdoor.
Once you starting focusing something else, you can easily free from tortures of these bad emotion.
Mindfulness activities can be really easy to do, taking a deep breath is sort of one kind of mindfulness trainings. I’m a Apple Watch guy, the watchOS contains an application called mindfulness, there are two ways of training inside, one is ‘breathing’, and the other one is ‘meditation’.
I do ‘breathing’ mostly, cause it’s such easy to do. There’s a tip in the description, and here you are.
‘’Breathe in and out, feeling the air of cold and the warm, focusing more on yourself. Touch your chest and feeling the bond of you and your heart deeply. Caressing your abdomen and calm down while breathing. ’’
It’s dark time now, but even this, you need to realize that these big things are going like never before in a long time. Whatever the results, people are different from decades ago. I can’t say too much about this, it’s way to sensitive. But the only thing I must to say, ‘’Always see bright side of things’’.
Everyone has the right of having a bad mood, if anyone said ‘’you’re weak’’, ‘’it’s not big deal, you made a mountain out of a molehill’’ or something else. I’m just gonna tell you they are so cruel that they maybe lost their humanity.
In my view, it’s good having the bad mood, but I suggest setting a ‘mood deadline’ for yourself. That means, once it’s time, you should stop hurting yourself by these emotion, and what the ‘Deadtime’ exactly it is, I trust you can make your own right decision for yourself.
‘’Stay Raging’’, it’s seemly opposite to the topic of this article, but again, feeling raging is why you’re a human, I believe after years, you will be thankful that what you sensed today, you gonna be proud of it just like we do.
At the end, maybe one of us can do nothing to the society, and even all of us can’t make any different to society in a short time. But be water, my friends. One day we’ll change the world. Before that take care.
亚热带的从六七月开始，潮湿和高温让人觉得闷热。可是狂风暴雨后的晚风又那么得温柔。
潮湿
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很久未见的朋友跟我说，从加州回来之后鼻炎就又犯了，他极度怀疑是湿度的原因，说这里的空气潮湿得能用手抓出水。
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有些台风来的很凑巧，暴雨赶上晚自习上课的点，一票男生女生在宿舍里进退两难，几个运气好的有伞可以撑。可是有没有伞都没好到哪去，狂风吹飞雨伞、掀起衣襟，水的张力又让衣服紧紧贴住后背。一路赶到教室的男生衣服裤子能出水、女生头发可以下雨，班级一阵潮湿。
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夏天会有太阳雨，这边洒太阳、那边落大雨。大都下不久，大太阳也能很潮湿。
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顶着最高温的午后骑行在亚热带的道路树荫下，手臂上一层水膜。
高温
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新闻台里的高温或许是不存在于某些学生时代的。五六月的午后太阳最毒、篮球场上能闻得见塑胶味的时候，吃完午饭还能见得到几个男生追着球跑。高温中暑，大概是下辈子的事情。
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杭州的高温从早就开始了，早晨七八点从酒店出来就顶着三十七八的太阳，高温让昨晚熬夜的人被晒得犯恶心。
闷热
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夏天的雨来得猛、来得快，可又总是坚持不了多久，站在下午一阵太阳雨过后的水泥路上闷热得像在蒸桑拿。
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学生时代的闷与热大概率不是午后，是夜自修进门后发觉学校不到时间不给电的空调，全班人都被闷热卡喉。我也不想上晚自习，全当过泼水节，一个劲的往地板上、黑板上一脸盆一脸盆地泼水。风扇吱呀，凉快一阵，水汽蒸发，闷热感再次袭来。
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夏天有时突然大雨，雨后好一阵闷与热
雨
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亚热带夏季的雨来得迅猛，打的人措手不及。倾盆大雨是说来就来，躲是来不及躲的，从这个屋檐下跳到另一个屋檐下，索性在这暴雨里跳《小步舞曲》。
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在这里，每年总是会和台风天不期而遇。在它真正到来前，风已然变得狂躁，打开房间前后的门窗，让空气对流，这是这个夏天少有的清凉时刻。
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夏天的雨多是雷阵雨，暴躁又短暂。
晚风
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狂风暴雨后是格外温柔的晚风。
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太阳暴晒后的路面，晚风都是热热的。
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从长发的女生旁擦肩而过，洗发水的味道带来亚热带季风。男生从篮球场走出，掀起亚热带大风。这是独属于青春的晚风味道。
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春夏秋冬里你在听什么歌？这个四季你看了什么样的电影？
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以后种花了就种好几种花，四季都可以是花季。
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别给自己创造信息茧房
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坚信是药三分毒的人 却相信中药可以治根…what a hilarious.
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Hope everyone can take their own responsibility, instead of counting on the organization, like governments or schools.
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我一直有个“悲观”的想法，迟早有一天我学生时代认识的某一个人会因意外或疾病离开这个世界。这是必然事件，只是我不知道这一天什么时候会来罢了。现在看来，我离青春年代又更远了一点，离死亡更近了一些，看来我们大家真的每一天都在向死而生。
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无论现实如何，躲进音乐的世界总是会好的。
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晴天午后骑着自行车听听《大风歌》
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在咖啡馆里商讨的留学事宜
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Instagram上的即时短片效果是不是灵感大多来源于老mv？来回播放 倒放 跳剪
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I don’t even care what you pity mind, I just wanna do it, and I did it.
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听夏夜晚风的海声
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严格只要对自己就行了
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和朋友换书看
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周末俱乐部
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十年前，遇上这么好的天气，应该是在操场上跟同学一起捉蝴蝶吧。
这个季节，操场上会有很多修剪下来还带很多绿叶的大树枝，挥一下轻松掀起一阵大风，刮起来的风足以扇晕一只小蝴蝶，一节课40分钟的时间两个人合力抓几十只蝴蝶放到盒子里是不成问题的。
下课铃响，有时捉弄女生，打开盒子，吓得黄的、白的、黑的满天飞……现在想想，很残忍又很好玩就是了。
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最近我的用来打游戏的那台windows显示器坏了，之前一直沉迷游戏无法自拔，正好就从这里戒掉吧。
Taking any accident as a chance.
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Young forever, forever young.
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街上的红男绿女
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你有多久没有把扫把幻想成吉他
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别看时代进步，早二十年那种见不得别人好的农村思想不还是现在短视频平台上的大流吗？
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You are what you eat.
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快毕业了，辅导员也变得可爱了，说话够直接。“就算你防着我，还有毕业证书要给你发，不能断了联系。”
所以说世界末日的前一天，有可能是人类最美最光辉的一天……
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晒太阳
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怪和有个性相等吗
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一个人的一段记忆是什么时候开始消失的？我猜大概是模糊到那段时间常听的音乐也唤不起那段记忆的时候。
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我做了一个playlist，中文名叫《渣男渣女》，英文名叫《Common in Love》。
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做梦梦到莫文蔚是我的同学，人很好，给我们看了听了她私藏未发行的专辑，还给我们留了电话，让我们有空可以打。
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上学的时候，经常喝点酒就去上课了，不想听老师讲的鬼话，就醉醺醺的趴电脑桌前。连老师的脸都不想看了，就直接翘课跑到咖啡馆咖啡配美酒。飞机上的时间太无趣，下点红酒晕晕的去机场。四下无人的夜路风吹着很舒服，跑到小酒馆搞两杯……
可在家咸鱼了这么久，一次都没有随着性子一个人喝酒，只因为我要立住自己在家里人面前滴酒不沾的人设，难免不自由。
我知道，现在有了这个念头之后，不久我就会离开这个地方追求我想要的自由和生活，这是个离开的信号…..
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最近我妈跟我讲了一句话令我震惊到语言系统崩溃 “人和畜生都要听话。”
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如果你觉得你的人生meaningless，just do something kind and human being。
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前两天救小猫咪的时候，周围那些半生不熟的邻居都聚到我身边了。当下我其实都不指望大家对我的行为有什么积极的看法，我也清楚这种行为不是高尚只是很理想主义且大概率不会被理解。可是他们嘴里不断重复重复重复的“指责”式“为你好”、“救这种东西干嘛”还是让我心火来了，实在忍不住吼了几句大家都散了，到最后只有一位现实生活中世俗意义过的不太好的邻居给我送了块不用的毛巾。
有时候我都在想如果大家只负责岁月静好和冷眼旁观，或许事情还能简单点…
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在家的这段时间里，再次经受小镇思想的考验。
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看样子我姐和我已经互相把对方看成反面教材了……
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等疫情过去了 一定要试试身上只带小灵通和现金 踩着轮滑在城市里兜一圈
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最近吃饭常时不时地想到—“进食本质上就是在分食餐桌上的尸体”，有这种想法了再看“素食主义者”、“环境保护主义”、信奉基督教的人的饭前祷告、厨师以及很多很多人和事都有了新的理解。
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摩托车 阳光 热空气 便利店的空调 夏天真的来了
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人生很偶尔也是需要狐朋狗友的
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亚热带迎来阵阵好天气
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有时候真的挺佩服不用梯子还能做到人文关怀、有独立意见的人，你们真心比我强太多。
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在家与圈养动物
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理想主义者看不惯却又无法改变的事情 最后都化作焦虑和不安的情绪
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半夜出门遇到女生让别人先走
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我们的敌人从来不是对立的群体 是残存的旧观念
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文思如泉涌
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青春不退潮
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工作后艺术类专业应该会少碰到很多职场上的社会大流行问题，例如同事领导过分关心个人生活之类的。
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往往你可以跟艺术生和医学生正常的谈论性相关的话题。
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接触不到新的人 生活就如一潭死水
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断舍离的艺术
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不过都是饮食男女
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有时做梦做到精彩剧情 梦里都想把它记录下来
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剪个了短发 以示对夏天的尊重
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去理发，理发师说我，“讲话斯斯文文 内心却很野”。
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大白 毕业 🐑 近来语言的污染性
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最近从朋友口中听到句对我的评价，我自我还挺满意的。
“如果是你的话，做什么事情都不会觉得很奇怪。”
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mental health with AirPods Pro & physical health with Apple Watch
最近我想出来的相当不错的广告词
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虽然很自大，但是有时候我真的在想，要是连我哪天都变得“油腻”、“社会”，我周围的朋友还会相信世界的真善美吗、他们的信仰是不是就此崩塌了？
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半夜兜兜便利店的路上，戴上AirPods耳放The Weeknd的Out of Time，好似天空传来的鼓声令人仿佛置身于爱乐之城。
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对那些提不起尊重的人，我是真的不尊重啊……
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To cure sometimes, to relieve often, to comfort always.
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世上无难事 只要不登攀
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亚热带碎片：潮湿、闷热、高温
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Meet me in the real world.
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在其他生物眼里，人类就是最恐怖最顶级的猎食者，像什么怪奇物语里Demodog都弱爆了。
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春江水暖鸭先知
夏天到了 电子产品先知
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Netflix里「Family&Kids」的分类真的合家欢。
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梦里也开始讲英语了
take a while
better than this
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这个世界太疯狂
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讲道理，老罗无非就是做人高调了点，只不过传统文化观念里都是被要求夹紧尾巴做人，用自己都没认真考虑过其合理性的标准要求别人，你们的世界可还真不多元啊。
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生命的下垂只可延缓 无法阻挡
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人过中年对生命力的失控大概是中年危机的重要成因之一。
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数字遗产 & 数字遗书
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不逃课、不对抗、不出格、安分的高中生活，在以后回忆起来大家是不是都会觉得很无聊？
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看样子在芸芸众生里能being special还真是such a gift
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Seemly being special is really a gift in numerous living being, so don’t be panic even in such traditional culture.
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受中式文化熏陶长大的小朋友，长大后应该抓住机会认真和小朋友玩玩，重新塑造一下自己的人格。
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明知自身正在遭受的是不公与不正义，却依旧选择跟随文化的大流行，向后人言传身教自己的种种，看来人类不仅仅是复读机而且还很可悲……
慎用“等到xxx你就会知道了”。
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The Great Lies / 伟大的谎言
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一半天使 一半恶魔
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没有缺陷的人不能爱
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Young & Bold
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Let the digtal heath control your own real world.
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手机是现代人的外置器官
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人与人共处的时间能帮人越过永无止境的虚无感
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这个世界门外汉很多，稍微努力一下就可以是天赋型选手。
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能接受自己的人最终选择和自己的面容和解，不能接受自己的人选择整容，都很好。
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新人生信条——懒得管。
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动车驶过上海 难以接受三个月前的这个地方经历过什么难过的事
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人类的复读机行为让人看起来就很没personality
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大城市里Apple Watch的保有量还挺大的，看样子小城市的社畜还用不着这种东西督促自己的健康。
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Be the master of your own body.
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拍到了过五十年之后看会十分具有历史意义的照片
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每个人对世界都有不同的看法，这些看法存在于每个人的心中。万物都在以某种形式流动，不存在绝对静止。心中的看法“流动”汇聚成“心流”，一个人若看到ta的心流有所“转向”，那么ta的世界就在改变。正如“薛定谔的猫”一样，猫的“状态”取决于“观测”，人的“心流”亦可使“世界的状态”“坍塌”。
观心流、观世界，就是在改变世界。对，就是这么唯心主义。
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身体经受年龄和东北天气的双重摧残之后，Gen Z也开始getting older。
灵感部分来源于——《Getting Older》- Billie Eilish
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最相思
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新面孔
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气味使人心安
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有没有故事的人最后都没关联
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（心情、状态、世界……）晴转阵雨
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我生活的那个互联网年代，“不睡觉 Download mp3”，是真实在发生的。
灵感来源于——《懒得管》- 莫文蔚/Karen Mok
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常常做梦
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体能提升解锁新活动、新快乐。
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长春的冬太长，回到家感觉已经非常久没有把窗开一整晚，从和煦的微风中醒来了。
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以前看过一条视频《第一反应》，讲的是一群专门做急救的人的故事。这段时间，我联想到，那么领导们遇到紧急事件的“第一反应”是什么呢？
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来到夏天，健身去不用换短袖短裤。
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下一代的行动常常模仿上一代的轨迹。
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外甥问我形式主义是什么？我觉得仅存在小学校门口的口罩检查大概率就是。
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有限的专注力，无穷待处理的信息。现在已经不是学生时代，摒弃垃圾信息就可以做到让专注力轻松在人群中脱颖而出。
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回顾十几载寒窗史，发现我实在不适合上学读书。小学翻墙，初中打地道战，高中和班主任对着干，大学就没听过一节课……说真的，在学校上学对我是何种的折磨啊。
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学生到社会人的身份转变挑战，大概我是最清楚不过了。
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这些年在东北的见闻，让我觉得很适合写一篇《东北异闻录》，我和朋友讨论过了，大概会很好看。
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比什么都不如比健康
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说真的，可盐可甜是什么？豆腐脑还是番茄炒蛋？
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有天晚上做梦，梦到我即将做一件“极恶”的事，现实里的朋友突然跳到我的梦里、阻止了我。梦醒来，我才意识到有些朋友已经成了我潜意识里的道德准则了。
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健身房不开门的日子里，没有快乐。每天的快乐只能从快乐水里摄取。
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夏夜难眠
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小朋友的简单世界，大人就不要来掺和了。
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健身房和图书馆都不开门的日子里，想要变的快乐，只能喝快乐水。
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千禧年代没有那么多便利之处，却有着Gen Z难以体验和想象的自由，现代人每天都携带的智能手机简直是“自走型定位器”。
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大小梦一场
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春雨里醒来
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Pandemic，实实在在的影响到了所有人。森林大火的灰，落在每个人的头上。
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春雨里洗过的太阳
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诗意大发
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人性与克制
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抖机灵与自我阉割
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流金岁月
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有大爱的人，伟大的人。
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大宗商品
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享受一个人
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惰性战争
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人生得意须尽欢
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最难在知行合一
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社交需求与Apple watch运动徽章
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命定时刻
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有天下午健身房出来，在商场门口的石墩子上看见一位“看云女孩”，她穿着和我初中一样的校服。
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说起来，我现在还在某种意义上的gap year。
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买了Apple watch、办了健身卡，也确确实实得多运动了，只不过培养健身习惯的方式怎么这么资本主义呢？
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学校生活让我难受的其中一点，就是学校随时让你干嘛你就得干嘛。但现在离开了学校、进入社会，随时而来的pandemic还是可以让你的生活处在不安定的状态。
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做重力训练的时候听收藏的音乐，双倍的chill是一天中最快乐的时间。
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不要做同一件坏事一百遍，有本事就做一百件不同的坏事。
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Sometimes, lover just like government.
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有基本科学素养之后发现很多事情都是形式大于意义。
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独立思考 难能可贵
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好奇心、胜负欲、怠惰，都可以是人生前进的动力。
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轮滑与城市漫游
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犯太岁
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静听蝉鸣蛙声一片
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人类的欲望无限膨胀，可是快乐其实可以很简单。
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音乐与一段记忆的捆绑
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半夜在桥头练歌的情侣
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Apple Watch再进一步推动数字管理真实生活
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Lots of people live in their own big dreamy bubble, it sucks. But don’t try to wake up somebody else, if you’ve already opened your eyes.
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做人真的要简单点
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Some of them have already stopped, now, it’s your turn.
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三十岁前 学钢琴 学语言 出国留学 学艺术 尝试各种体育运动
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希望不要放弃挑战自己。
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Don’t stop learning something.
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Lean more English just for seeking truth and telling truth.
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走在路上的人现在在听什么歌？
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让数字掌握生活
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走慢一点点
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Never Discuss Politics, Religion or the Great Pumpkin.
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朋友说 临近毕业了 整个朋友圈都在呜呼哀哉 只有我一天比一天开心
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滑行
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魏思孝有本书的名字叫《小镇忧郁青年的十八种死法》。如果就这么俯视小镇青年，好像他们不少过得挺忧郁的。恰逢前段时间看到少数派有推一篇文章，讲都市青年（好像是深圳）是怎么过好一个文化艺术周末的，当时我就在想一个小镇青年怎么才能做一个不忧郁小镇青年。
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Apple的产品太适合自闭症患者
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构思一个在街上抬起头计划——《走在街头 就抬起头》
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近段时间，见到了初中时代跟我关系很好的朋友，他去国外读书，我们也很久没见过面了。记得初中的时候他就有个非常独特的喝水习惯，喝水常常含一口水鼓在脸颊的一边，然后过一段时间再咽下。因为这个喝水方式实在太独特了，以至于我记到现在。而最近一次见面，让我又见到了这经典的喝水方式。
这经典的一幕，也让我想起我其他一些朋友，好像我的朋友们他们都不会变。
真好。
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四季的运动
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做身体的主人
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所有的朋友都在说身体不如前 所以青春是真的一去不复返了对吗
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苹果的产品有一个特点 它让人去适应设备 watch也一样 买不买watch的关键是 你想不想要成为watch目标用户这样的人
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我上辈子是只头狼吗 为什么领地意识这么重？
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力量训练 心脏爆发力
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熬夜配额
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我终于成了你想要我成为的样子 然后你现在发现你完全不能接受我现在的样子
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你在哪个城市 你就会做什么样的人
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阳光 新鲜空气 我们人需要的其实和自然生长的树没什么两样
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和植物一起生活
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小学翻墙买面包、初中线上作业答案同盟会、高中带领同学集体翘课吃饭、大学gap year，可能牙牙学语是我最乖的时代了吧。
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正月的太阳什么时候来？
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AirPods Pro 让你的世界不再孤单
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How to be myself? I think the most thing is figuring out what I wanna do exactly. So I found a good way to get it. Picturing my life with jazz flowing while mindfulness.
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只要是还在学校 生活是没有生活可言的
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空荡的房间里 三个人就可以很拥挤 by张清芳
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时间会老 阿岳的声音不会老
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你现在在听什么歌？你现在身处哪个时代？
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如何从纷纷扰扰的世界里剥离出来
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没有“纯艺术”的生活时而让人没有方向
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雪天的公路有十分奇妙的景象，你可以看到公路上有无数飘渺的白色小蛇汇聚、蜿蜒、散去。
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生活的真理千变万化 by 张震岳
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爱情也有市场经济
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春天的时候花儿还爱我 只是现在怎么变了 by 赵薇
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昨天夜里有八九小时的好梦时光。白皙的脸庞、一双直直的眼，坚定而缓慢的一个吻落在了脸颊，一段好梦时光有些温暖。
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虚言的爱
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陆上运动、陆地运动、海洋运动
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许汉山是谁？
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天上又飘起了小雪 但心里还是有一万个不开心
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生活不设限
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天天减肥 越减越肥
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情欲的幻想圈套
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做梦的人
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整天搞性别对立的人 你们心里是有多少仇恨 生活是过得有多苦
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家长与孩子的攻防战无论哪个时代都没有停歇过，小孩在这个过程中变得更加聪明、狡猾，家长变得更加宽容、漠视。
讲一个小学同学的故事，他家里有一台笔记本电脑，但他妈妈不准他玩，但平时还要上班，所以就给电脑上了密码，只有在周末特定的时间才会解锁允许他玩一下。但我这个同学并不满足于此。他想到的办法让我觉得他很聪明，他拿水笔在键盘保护膜贴键盘的那一侧给所有的键都点上了一个点，再轻轻的盖上，然后让他妈妈过去输密码，输完密码就看键盘上都有哪些键沾上了墨印，再根据最有可能的密码排列组合，就知道了密码。那时，我们在他家玩，他的爸妈都不在，他一边把这件事讲给我们听一边给我们解锁电脑，我就把这件事记到了现在。
还是电脑密码，我有另外一个初中同学跟我关系挺好，他跟我说他家的电脑也被他爸上了密码。我就跟他讲，有种东西叫做pe系统，这东西是“修电脑”的工具之一，最大的功能就是可以很方便的重做系统，可除此之外，它还有个功能就是删除原先的电脑密码。他听闻，十分感兴趣。周末我就去了他家，一起把电脑密码给删了。可惜好景不长，不出一个星期，他爸就发现了，还通告了班主任……
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我总觉得那些没受过互联网1.0时代“培训”的人现在就在滥用技术。就拿学校和家长沟通这件事，越来越多的班级有所谓的班级家长群，可这些群就是一个个吹水群，没什么实际作用，根本不能起到家长和教师之间沟通的作用。真要沟通，大可以选择让家长来学校一趟或者一个电话的事情，正经人谁拿“群”沟通？
我上的小学是寄宿制的学校，分大小星期，而“小星期”的时候是不允许住校生回家的，一般住校生得半个月才能回家一次。虽然平时家长就是允许进入学校的，但“大星期”接小孩回家的那天其实有点像国外的“开放日”，家长可以和各科目老师、班主任沟通，参观学校，观察学校教学等。
虽然互联网1.0时代的时候，我年纪尚小，但我也算是经历过它的培训的。我们那时候有一个班级新浪博客，许多的学校活动、班级近况甚至一周作业，都会公布在上面。因为是博客性质的，所以家长可以留言评论。
我丝毫不觉得，家长群会比以上沟通模式更好，除了更好的拍马屁，它还有什么长处吗？
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时间虽然不能重来 但我们可以创造一个可以重来的机会
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一个mental health 的小tip。在运动之后，我会让流水从我头顶落下，水流完全盖住双耳，这个时候我的世界只剩下水流的声音，和此刻的温暖一起，是有些颅内高潮的味道。
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可以做梦也是一种幸福
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夺回生活主权实验
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观察别人开的车 戴的表 判断对方是什么样社会阶层的人 这种能力其实挺歪门邪道的
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年轻的时候，懒、爱吃垃圾食品，乱用药，喜欢浪费、沉迷消费。现在思考人与自然、运动、健康、环保、亲密关系。果然，年纪大了，就要对自己好一点……
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自立有时像强行鼓起到达极限的气球 可能再碰到什么就爆了
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我不是一个记忆好的人 所以要借助科技的力量
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其实挺鄙视吃硬不吃软的这帮人的，这帮人根本不懂尊重为何物。
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我的创作欲和灵光一闪其实和我的不开心是有点成正比的。外在的不开心迫使我把注意力都放在内在的心流上。随着被流放的时间马上要走到尽头，不开心的日子也要结束了。未来说不定也不再会有这么高频的mind spark。
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大学生正处于一个很奇怪的阶段，学校里，老师告诉学生这不能做那不能做。担心一个成年人跟小孩一样，不能为自己的行为负责。
别管法律怎么样，二十出头、头脑清醒的人在学校看来就和精神病人一样、没有民事行为能力，总得需要一个监护人。
可一旦毕业了呢？所有的人都在告诉你，你是成年人了，你要工作、你要为整个家庭负责任、你要结婚要生孩子。
What a shame.
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网络将我们连结在一起。你或许没见过我，但我认识你，这不是我们第一次见面。
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黄粱一梦 二十三年
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二十三朵花
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一碗秋
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水合作用
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树还在的时候
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当年上高中的时候，学校一共三个食堂，两个小卖部，一个炸鸡店。
我和同学几乎天天课间操也不做，就是往炸鸡店跑。吃外卖、吃烧烤，顿顿吃到饱也完全不会胖。
现在呢？饮食要控制、运动也要跟上。年轻真好啊。
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我们这种裸泳的人是没有什么大理想的，只希望青春的潮水退的慢一点，再慢一点。
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最近想和远在深圳的朋友做一起秋的podcast，但是她才刚结束夏天，我早已经过上了冬。
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镜面里一条陌生的皱纹浮现
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去ktv点的歌都是阿姨辈才能一起唱的了
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“莫”式风情
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be who I am
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小雨别走
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人类的欢愉
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落日走
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人从汹涌的潮汇向时间的长河
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正念爬坡
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真是年轻有梦想就要去追去实现它，年轻的时候是想去kfc兼职的，这样就有便宜的炸鸡可以吃。但现在时间有了，身体却不允许了。
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和平音浪
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睡眠有时是百无聊赖的解
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有时，面对雪景的慢跑就可以是一种浪漫了。
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雪后的夜晚好安静又不绝对无声，和这昏黄的天一起，稍有几分银翼杀手里拉斯维加斯的意思了。
这一天之间，街上所有的司机都学会了好好开车、慢慢开车。这个城市能浪漫多久，似乎取决于这场雪能下多久。
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南南北北的来来回回征程是一场场喧哗与宁静的变幻
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情欲还是走了
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“闭眼容易 闭嘴太难”——齐豫
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那些在学校里连一年都没有努力过的人，现在好像过的都挺惨的。
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After years and years, friends will be each other.
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从深夜睡到第二天的午后，醒来是漫天的白。下楼检查初雪还是轻柔的，那么目前为止世界就还是美好的。
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依然ts
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不久前我去联通营业厅办宽带，因为提前在微信上咨询过业务员A，业务员A明确很我说3个月的短期宽带是可以办理的，但恰巧当天她不在，于是让我找业务员B报她的工号就可以了。
接待我的业务员B是个年纪不大、二十几多的小姑娘。我坐下，她给我的答复就是不给办理短期宽带。当时我就很疑惑，拿出了和A的聊天记录，她迟疑了一会，过了会和A通了信息。五分钟，从不能办又到能办了。
过了会，她又跟我说有150元的“测调费”，所谓的测调费，实则是安装师傅进“光猫”后台填写两行数据。家家户户光纤入户的年代，如此简单、五分钟能搞定的小事要收我150元，我自然是不肯的。让她把设备给我，我自己安装，这回又轮到她不肯了。我又给业务员A发消息，结果就是可以不收150元的“测调费”，只收100的押金，并且最后可以退。
钱的问题既然解决了，照理剩下的业务也应当十分简单，开一个宽带账号、两个手机号的事。但令人出乎意料的，我愣是干等了近一个小时。
期间，我终于忍不住催促她。
我不知道她站在什么立场上说的，“要不是你要求这么多也不至于这么慢。”
当场我就回应她，“要不是你卡我这么多次，那也不至于这么慢。”
她沉默。手上的活依旧不利索，键盘左敲敲、鼠标右点点，没点两下还输入错误。又是二十多分钟走过。
直到最后办完业务，看她面对着在队伍中等了半个多小时的客户的指责。那时我心里有一个疑问，“小姑娘你到底是业务不精还是就想卡我一下？”
有一句话正好——非蠢即坏。
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我们新换了一个辅导员，同学间的风评一致且出奇的差。她另一段处理学生间矛盾的“伟大事迹”我先不说了，说一件今天发生的事。
现在学校是“封校”期间，我的同学早段时间就和她申请了走读，她给的答复是“现在不能办理，但是如果能办理了，一定尽快通知他。”
就在今天，我的同学收到了她发的通知和申请表，于是让我也可以今天去问她申请。然后我去找她，就被告知不能办理……
一路磨磨蹭蹭。
我问她“为什么别人可以我不可以”。
她问我“谁可以？”。
我跟她说“有人可以”。
她跟我说“不可能有人可以”。
我说“很多人都可以”。
她问我说“你说谁可以”。
我跟她说“xxx可以”。
她说“xxx不可以”。
我又问她“到底可不可以？”。
她总算是松口，“不一定不可以”……一张申请表发过来……
世界本来很简单，你们这帮人为什么要它弄的如此复杂？我现在有理由怀疑你们这帮人肯定在下一盘大棋，你们都是三体人派来毁灭地球的奸细。
上初中的时候，班主任管理很严格，他会指点我生活的方方面面，从教室到食堂、从寝室到厕所都是他的管理辖区，他可能会出现在校园的任何一处，抓我捣蛋的现行。
那时候的我，爱管闲事、在班级里爱和同学讲话、爱八卦、喜欢凑热闹。我们的班会课上时常有记名的、不记名的自我检举和检举他人，我打心底里总是不愿意“举报”他人的，所以万般无奈地只能总写自己不够努力、粗心大意芸芸。于是，我得到了同学们笔下的“偏爱”，顺理成章得也就成了班会课后班主任的“宠儿”。
大约一个月一次的“检举日”过后的前一两个星期，总是最难过的。因为常被换位置，所以教室的前前后后我都到过，我曾经的前后左右桌，是不止教室里那算上同学老师的几十个活物的，什么空调、黑板擦、收音机都曾是我的前后左右桌。
其中印象最深的，就是我直至毕业中考前都坐的“超超前排”。
我们那时候的桌子是上掀式的，所以桌上的书是不能放的太多的，不然开桌子拿书的时候，桌上的东西全会掉到地上。但我的不会，因为白墙可以帮我抵住书本，想怎么开就怎么开，在当时那简直是“羡煞旁人”。
当然这得天独厚、想开桌子就开桌子的好位置，并不是班主任起初给我安排的位置，说起来桌子和墙壁到还有那么几十厘米的距离，但看着老师其实并不怎么在意我的具体位置，所以我干脆就让墙壁和桌子做朋友了。
初中那最后一段时间，我大概是班级里过的最潇洒的一个。因为当时的位置完全看不清黑板上写了什么，所以各位任课老师默许我可以“不听课”。讲台下的“灯下黑”，更是令我得到上课吃吃零食、睡睡觉的“特权”，好不美哉。我总觉得那时的数学老师嗅觉可能不大好，上课上到一半说闻到一股“中药味”，那其实是我在吐泡泡糖。
天不负我，我还是在最后惊艳到了我的班主任，我“出乎意外”得考上了全市最好的高中。从他手里接过毕业证书的那时，我觉得他总有些情绪难以言表。
我和我的外甥关系现在挺好，接他放学的路上，他跟我说以前他会和班级里的一个人打架，但他现在不会了，因为那个人现在打不过他了。不仅他们两个不打架了，他们现在还玩到一起去了。
家里人听到后都说他“傻”，“诘问”他为什么现在还和那个人玩。看着他接不上话的样子，我替他解了围，说那是他善良、大度。他立马学着用我的话反驳家里人。那时，我真觉得此刻他身上闪着的哪是什么“傻气”，那是还有几分稚气、尚未长成的乐观与宽容。
生活的压力无处不在，来到长春之后尤其。留心于周遭的话，立马能察觉“热心市民”的空缺，缺乏管理的阴井盖，聚众打架也没多少人会选择报警，有多少在经历不公的“消费者”选择沉默……发生这些事的当时，我的身边也恰好有熟人，他们之中不乏说我多管闲事的。
我想起当年那位不看好我的班主任，“管闲事”、“爱八卦”、“凑热闹”这些词他用在了我的身上，现在看来他还是对的，这么多年来我的本质或许依旧没什么改变。
上初中的我和在饭桌上愣愣不知该说些什么的外甥或许有些相似，我们都不知道该如何回应他人对我们身上特质的“不看好”。可过了许多年，当年那些特质依旧还在我的身上。如今，它们在我们的眼、在其他人眼中，或许不再是当年别人告诉我们的那个样子。
因为既然“傻气”可以变成善良、大度，那么“爱管闲事”、“爱凑热闹”，我没有什么理由不相信它们不可以变成“热心肠”、“爱生活”。
本文的结束用前两天看到的一句话正合适。
“心有多净，世界有多净。”
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夜听风雨声
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高考不考的是为自己的选择负责。
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第三卫生间的出现，或许是城市迈向大城市的标志之一。
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不为还没发生的事大动肝火。
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你们这帮人，网都不好好上，还有啥前途。
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梦见乌云
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我们现在在哪个时代
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现实听感连结梦境，鬼压床。
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包括我在内，我周围那些年轻时代愿意折腾手机、折腾数码产品的男男女女们，一个个都从安卓换到苹果了。
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希腊，感觉很美好的样子。
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人生接力赛
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最近给Apple的Airpods Pro想到了一句广告词。
Study everywhere even in school, now with Airpods Pro.
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保持运动，保持年轻。
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你不知道的刘若英。
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一杯待客的白糖水。
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台州人民过鬼节的时候总会烧纸钱，放一桌酒菜在外给先人。从居民区骑行而过，你可以问到空气里的“七月半”。
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人还是小孩的时候，父母选择“严厉”的教育，当下效果那是立竿见影的。可小孩一定会有叛逆期、也可能会有真正意义上的“长大成人”。我在想，那时他们不再惧怕打和骂了，父母是不是就迎来了所谓的“中年危机”了呢。
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你在哪座城市，你成为什么样的人。
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ts的创作欲大多来源于对这片土地的憎恶——wxy。
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每个人生活的出口都在哪里。
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落在这片土地的这一个礼拜，先是感冒上门拜访，痘痘、起床后水肿也接踵而来，生活里的缝隙“流鼻血”让我别忘了还有它。取不到的薛定谔式快递、连不上网的4G，算上各种奇怪的规定。我只有一个简单问题。过敏，你何时来？
What a week. 生活不能变得再好了，只能戴上耳机进入到周董的演唱会，感受空间音频带来的一点点美好。
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00后的小朋友，个个皮肤好好。
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年龄越大就变得越宽容，不论是对别人还是自己。
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混乱与非秩序。
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管闲事、爱八卦、凑热闹……这些当年被班主任训的，如今都成了生活里美好的品质，热心肠、关心他人、爱生活。
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离开江浙的日子，每一顿都想吃自己做的饭。
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一万种生活。
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自己生活都一团糟的人，应该也很难做到对别人友善吧。
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去秋日的暖阳下走走。
以前有段时间很迷好妹妹的电台节目《你妹Radio》，云端的飞机上、无聊的课堂、需要打发时间的日子，这两个搞怪的人做的电台节目，对我来说确实算得上互联网冲浪时，比较独享的私密海域。
记得有一次秦昊说，有段时间他特别忙，一天要跑三四个城市，每天在床上醒来不知道自己在哪里。那时候我是不大有这种感觉的，我总觉得我也要经常飞来飞去，做高铁赶路，但其实也没有这种感觉，每天醒来其实心里很清楚自己在哪要做什么。
最近，认识很久的好朋友结婚了，早半年多前，她们就早早的发出了邀请。借着这个契机，我也是找了个理由迟迟没有返校，直到参加完她们的婚礼之后才往学校飞。
来杭州参加婚礼的时候，距离我上一次在地铁上看见「杭州东站」这四个字已经过了一年多了。这次再见这四个字，心里总有几分的错乱，一年多前因为工作在杭州，所以常常见这四个字，听地铁上报的“新风”、“新塘”……熟悉不过的站点时，一年多感觉并没有很远。
我是休学一年期间去参加的工作，我的身份也是从学生到“社会人”又回到学生，这个过程其实是很有意思的。在这个过程中，我能反复体验学生、“工作”、“社会”的变化。对我来说，学校里是一种生活，工作是另一种生活，像我的这对刚结婚的朋友的朋友，认识他们更是接触到又不一样的生活。这样大体三种生活，我相信对于绝大部分人来说都应该是循序渐进，先有一再有二、三的。因为选择了gap year，在这两年里，好像我在坐时光机穿梭，我没有像大家一样有循序渐进的身份变化，这种神奇的感觉其实就是有意思的地方。
工作了，我还有学校的老师、学校的形式主义需要我对付。在学校，我偶尔跑到附近的咖啡厅做线上的工作。我一会下了班和朋友吃饭，一会以学生的身份从这里飞到那里、和朋友的朋友相识。
今天闹钟响了，醒来问了自己几个问题，“我在哪里？我今天要做什么？我还可以继续睡吗？”。
*文中充斥大量不正确“抗台”操作，阅读本文的各位小朋友请勿模仿。
最近有一阵台风，台风天对我来说是夏天必来的常客。年年夏天，台风都会带着东海上的水汽来给热到不行的城市来一场急速降温。
台风天前往往都会有很好的天气，艳阳天高照，南方高大的树错落在城市的四通八达。绵绵蝉鸣，骑行在树荫下，耳机里随便放点歌，浪漫、美好的情调一下就出来了。
我对台风还是说不上不喜欢的、乃至对台风的到来会有些许的期待。实在是因为近年来的台风绝大多数时候并不会对我所居住的城市造成非常大的经济损失或者人员伤亡，相反的，强烈的风和猛的雨会带来好些天的清凉。
小时候唯一印象比较深、对台州造成比较重大的经济损失和人员伤亡的是小时候的“云娜”台风，但随着越来越好的城镇化和政府的防台风工作，至少现在“台风天”对台州椒江的老百姓而言，已然没有当年那种提心吊胆了。我们当地还有种迷信的说法，说是那年之后有位老婆婆去庙里祈福，自那之后，台风再也没有对台州造成很大的破坏。
台风来临前两天的风是最爽的，可以选择打伞和自然小小的博弈下，也可以任凭高速的风贯穿身上的短袖短裤。狂风远不至于让人吹走，但双耳能明确的感受到它“呼呼”的风。感受着它，心里总会升起一丝的自由和浪漫。
身体的新陈代谢随着年龄的变化势不可挡的被放慢，保持运动这个真理慢慢成了迫不得已的现实。在健身房做无氧的时候，因为是室内，是没什么空气流动的。在家不一样，可以任我把窗门打开，风从几个房间穿堂而过，台风前的风正适合这么干。呼啸的风给播着歌的HomePod配和声，在陈升、莫文蔚的声音里撸着铁，亚热带生活里闪现一些新浪漫。
我从初中开始骑自行车上下学，那时候还没有共享单车的概念，骑的是那种有固定还车点的城市公共自行车。公共自行车点是密集的，常能看见工作人员维护、调拨这些公共自行车，基本上不会出现没车用的情况。而在“共享单车”这个概念横空出世、“红”遍大街小巷时，对我来说，这个变化准确了来说像是生活变得更加“方便”一些，而不是“方便”和“很不方便”之间的区别。
上了高中之后，从学校到家的距离就更远一点。学校在市区的“东北角”，家在西南角。说不上太远，骑快一点，大约二三十分钟，骑得慢一点，大约三四十分钟。严寒和酷夏的大多数周末放学，也都是选择骑行回家。
骑行是一种非常“自由”的出行方式，而家和“学校”的位置恰巧给了我穿行市区所有大路小路的机会，骑行时我会故意选择没有走过的路，从市区的主干道到偏僻的小路能走的我都走。工厂门口那只大黑狗、二中旁边长这些青苔的路、几家从门店看起来就挺有意思的小店、最近多出来马路口的遮阳亭、有卖梅花糕的报亭、还在修的马路和没人的夜晚的加油站……
南方的夏天非常热，我们那的方言有一句“日头夹去越猛的”，讲的就是太阳非常的晒人，太阳底下的空气也是炙热。但只要不是正中午的时候，我都还是能骑自行车的。除了我比别人稍微抗晒一点点以外，主要是因为南方的绿化都很好，树长得都很大，道路两旁边的树足以让整条路都填满绿阴。骑在这样的路上是不大会觉得热到受不了的，有时一阵强风吹拂，只觉得是温温热的夏日午后。
这些事情在我生活在台州、杭州的时候，从未意识到它们的“特别”，让我慢慢产生自行车“情节”的，是在我去了长春之后。
去长春之后，我就几乎不骑自行车了。大一的时候，我可能根本没有意识到这件事。对长春的交通我常常抱有疑问，这个疑问总是“为什么长春的交通那么乱？为什么不礼让行人”，我没有意识到的疑问是“为什么长春没有非机动车道？”。
长春能玩能逛的地方不多，对于绝大多数大学生，能选择的出行方式只有公交、打车、走路。有的地方并不远，也算不上近，这样的时候，能选择的出行方式往往只有打车或走路。在长春将近半年的冬天里，能选择的出行方式让我倍感“受限”。而值得一提的是，至今为止，长春的公交车仍未支持银联、Apple Pay或任何其他互联网支付方式。
东北地区人口流失的情况是众所周知的，别的地区我不好说。长春，仔细听听走在路上的学生们，你有时可以听到他们在讲“长春的坏话”，我身边的朋友几乎没有说想要毕业之后留在长春的。而相反的，我途径沈阳的时候，沈阳给我的感觉是好的。
移动互联网的发展让外卖行业蓬勃发展，现在去任何一个城市，你在路上都能看见外卖员骑着电瓶车飞驰得风风火火。但没有非机动车道的城市，外卖员只能和机动车“抢道”，光在学校门口，我就见到了几次两辆电瓶车对撞。
长春怎么没有非机动车道呢？
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之前在杭州逛西湖的时候，高中同学问我是不是延毕了。前两天家里兵检的电话打来，问我是不是留级了。
每当这种时刻，我都会想，你们这帮人是怎么做到把gap year讲的这么难听的。
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看省医院的医生还不如去看看谷歌和维基百科。
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最近很难过，因为有段时间没有好好上网了。
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四年也没来过图书馆的小朋友，最后和母校的告别方式就是用做作的姿态和图书馆合张影，每每想到这里图书馆都很伤心。
5
亚热带的树总是那么大，一年四季都有绿色。你还可以过嚼着冰块有夏天感觉的夏天。
6
玫瑰看起来很多情。
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台州人讲台州话。
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常识是很有主观性的东西，别人都知道的你可能不知道，你觉得大家都应该知道的别人可能不知道。“这点常识都没有”难听的版本就是“没有家教”，慎用。
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“自动化”趣闻两则
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为什么不要当家庭主妇？你丈夫和婆婆能给你交五险一金吗？
4
下雨天当然要听情深深雨濛濛
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在家就是，“水乡温柔来到天凉的秋”。
在长春就是，《秋天别来》。
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其实挺怕随着年龄的增长，我的心流逐渐枯竭的。虽然现在正是心流的蓬勃期，但真到了个把月也没点mind spark的时候，我充其量也就只能算个机器吧。
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不吃辣的人真的没必要锻炼吃辣
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温柔与善良这两个品质实在太美好了。
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你要的到底是欢愉还是一个拥抱？
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男孩女孩出生在方圆十公里、从生到死需要的东西都齐全的地方。这十公里以外是别人的世界，十公里内是男孩女孩的一辈子。
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之前看到朋友的短信，看到她投诉食堂大妈摘豆角只摘一边，得到了学校的积极反馈。我想到我自己是不会因为这些事情投诉的，因为我总觉得这些大妈也挺不容易的。
这不妨碍我很欣赏她这种“投诉精神”，世界上永远是需要不偏激的两波人的。
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临近毕业，我发现除了我之外，好像周围的人全都考了驾照。我很不喜欢汽车，原因是多方面的。
其中很重要一个原因，这不仅意味着一份责任，更是一份任务。会开车，这意味着你需要开始负起运送他人的责任。会开车，这意味着你切实了“人生大事”任务的基石，因为至少在我们那的小城市里，会开车就是找对象、谈婚论嫁的基础。听起来就很扯淡。
我太怕麻烦了，怕麻烦到周围人有问题都不会第一时间来找我解决。这份多出来的责任和任务显然是件麻烦事。
只要不学车，社会就可以离我还远。知道吗？汽车简直是各种意义上的万恶之源。
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看来小黄歌都很喜欢用打击感很强的bass。
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城市垃圾桶密集度大概可以反应城市生活的质量。
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听歌的平台总在换，让我难免遗失几首爱过的歌。
打开Apple Music想找点J-POP听，一下子听到那几首十七八岁时候常听的。好像一下子拾回遗失在那个夏天的活力，有了用不完的力气做有氧训练。
想到半夜三更钱塘岸边的漫游，外面四十度里面凉飕飕的电影厅，还有不用上课乘着出租车吹着的傻傻的风。一个半小时的有氧做完还觉意犹未尽，只是用力过猛，皮肤它又缺水干燥到过敏要吃氯雷他定。
同名Podcast节目筹划中……
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和高纬度的北方夏天很不一样，南方的酷夏，来得早来得猛。
白天的时候很热，傍晚太阳放学了也还是热。那是出空调房，走两步就会流汗的热。热，但是男生喜欢在很热的塑胶场上打篮球，打到浑身上下全是汗，打到头发跟刚洗的一样。有时，你吃饭迟了，他们正好刚打完球。从你身边走过，会给你掀起一股亚热带大风。
热，出很多汗。所以除了一些神人，大家都是要一天洗一次澡的。下午放学吃饭、晚自修前是很好的洗澡时间段。身处亚热带又处沿海地区，空气里的水汽很足，洗完的头发总是很难干。留长发的女生们大多是擦一擦，路上挥舞着能拧出点水的头发就来班级了。落座的她们是要趁着时间还早聊会天的，边聊天、边拨弄自己的头发，然后一股股洗发水在冷气里荡漾开来。现在不禁让我想，她们或许在那时刮起了一阵亚热带季风。
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To be continued……
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一直以为陈升是歌里的那只风筝，没曾想他才是那个放风筝的人。刘若英如她的歌为爱痴狂，陈升却want her freedom like a bird。
注定没有结果的爱和对唱似的情歌，你知道吗，果然听唱片还是要去了解创作背景的。
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有些小年轻身上的爹味十足，很难让我不感叹，父权社会真的容易让人喘不过气啊。
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看见一辆打着广告的公交车，上面写着，让分娩成为一种享受。
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不传谣不信谣，有时这话太像新时代的大帽子。
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爱如潮水——张信哲
只有爱让人心情舒畅——莫文蔚
爱让人心醉。
爱和不可克制的地心引力。
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迎面而来的人路过，一阵强风吹拂。
7
上学挺不容易的，要当问题儿童免费的知心大哥哥，要做野鸡老师最好的貌合神离的婚姻伙伴，要长成那株长最快最好的韭菜。
8
冷锋过境，爱恨天地灼热。
9
长春是一个没有自行车道的城市。
10
大风吹跑了一只进攻型恶犬。
11
变聪明最简单的方法就是把别人想得聪明一点。
12
坏情绪真的只要写出来，就可以赶跑它了。
13
我能听得懂一部分daily Japanese，另我的室友大吃一惊。想来这就是第二外语的魅力之处吧——增添生活的情趣。
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在杭州工作的后半段时间里，有幸让我带过几个刚毕业的“实习生”，他们有的是大学生，有的是大专生。
他们的能力都不大理想，举个实例你会明白，如果一件事我自己来做可能需要一小时，但如果我需要让他们来做，可能我需要花三倍的时间才能完成这件事。当然，这不免有“王婆卖瓜”的成分在。
后来老板问我觉得他们怎么样，我其实是觉得挺难回答的，一方面我不想显得太狂妄，一方面我也得说真实情况。
思索片刻，我能憋出一句话，“可能缺点灵气吧”。当时，那个老板在车上哈哈大笑，说我这个“要求”太高了。
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《野百合也有春天》——潘越云
《五月的你》——好妹妹
《秋天别来》——侯湘婷
《冬季到台北来看雨》——孟庭苇
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我们的相遇和我们的故事，都在10小时之外。
17
偶然在歌唱类综艺节目上看到金海心，说话客客气气、乃至有点低声下气的样子，像极了还没出道的小朋友，可听说当年她的歌至少也得是小有名气的。我不能看到这样的事情，实在太让人伤感了。
18
朋友圈浓度高是因为现实生活过的太糟糕。
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魔鬼的情诗
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如今，往日遇过的人和事，现在都一一在我脑海里浮现。“今朝的容颜老于昨晚”的同时，生活感的真切在一点点的增加。
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亚热带生活。
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在大学里看到一个用滑板代步、穿格子长裙的女生，阳光下的她又酷又美。
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